//flowers on the dining room table//
Does anyone else feel like everything is
like the drop in your stomach
when the ferris wheel
begins a downward cycle
even if you'd rather stay at the top,
pulled forward and back towards earth
even though you can
see the sun better
from up high.
everything is ending,
school draws to a close,
thinning and narrowing
in the single-minded plunge towards
that one word ominous like a judge's gavel
but even heavier this year
this last year.
Does anyone else feel like now
we're different people than we were?
we've known we weren't children anymore
been trying to believe it for a
long, long time
but today it feels real, like you've outgrown your own skin
and you look at yourself
and wonder what to do nowthese hands that are totally, completely your own
now reaching forward to grasp a future
that you aren't sure you want to hold
the far-away decisions press ever closer
look very, very small.
Does anyone else feel lost?
but also excited, like
you never even knew there was this much world
to get lost in, and
it's time to go exploring?
like, yeah these hands are small
but there's a lot of room between them
and my heart is wide, wide open.
I do not feel ready to tackle
this great big world
but I know
so-o, growing up is...weird? anyone else, or am I totally crazy? ☺ tell me what fun and scary / exciting new things are happening to you this summer!